My Story - At the right place at the right time

Soon after my giving in to my life, three persons came into my life, one after another. I thought I could start life anew, and fall in love again. But such things come as fast as they go...thankfully I realised my mistake. I did not really like them. They were all just at the right place at the right time.

2003 came. The start of my Secondary 3 life. I was streamed into the same class as you...but over the holidays I forced myself to forget you. I was determined to start life anew.

In the first few months...this girl came into my life. Just as I was most depressed, she was like the bright spark that came in. I decided to take my chances with her. She was not as resistant as you. We wrote messages to each other during lessons...and I felt happy. At that point of time, I thought I really had forgotten you. It really felt like I did.

One incident I would always remember...would be the day I went to the library with her and our classmates to discuss a play. You were not present as you were not involved. We went into the café and discussed. I was sitting beside her on the sofa...and playing with her hair. She then laid down on the pillow that was on my lap...I thought I felt love. But I think, deep, deep down inside, I wish that it was you instead. Wishful thinking...

She went out of my life soon. I realised she was "too friendly" to guys, if you get my gist. Thankfully my realisation was early. I wonder how many guys I have seen her walked home with...

Then came the Secondary 3 Camp. It was to be the stage for another person to come into my life, and to go off as soon. It was another one of our classmate... I was with her often throughout the camp. I knew it was to be only a short camp "fling". It ended as soon as it started. She has a boyfriend now.

The last person to come, is someone close to you. She was so like you...and I thought she could be a substitute for you. That was one of the most regretful things I have ever done. I ended up hurting her, and others. I hated myself for playing with her feelings.

They were just at the right place at the right time. I liked them for what they were, not who they were. You? You are too deeply etched into my heart...and they could not replace that mark.

posted by Jason Chua at 9/28/2003 05:41:00 PM |